Boring Life

After living in this world for quite a long time, around two decades, i feel that my life is a bit too monotonous. Everyday doing the same old thing, going through the same old attitude, living in the way which my life hates the most. This kind of living makes me feel the most bored. As much as i wish not to admit it, i know that this is going to be my future in life, being a slave of money, having to slog my guts out for the pittance that i need to survive. Wishing to find the solace that will never appear in my life and the peace that will never been unto me in my life.

This is the main reason why i have always hated life and the way in which the world works. Is this really the evolution of man, or is this the devolution of humanity? Sometimes all these really makes me wonder which is really the truth and which is the false. Excitement about the fact on living in the past is now just a dread which i hate to come. Blood pumping about growing up is now a growing hatred for the time coming. Is this really what i had wished for in my life and the soul which is being eaten away by the world which is pumping mindlessness onto me? How i wished now that i was never a human. Suddenly i wish that i can grow old, so old that i know that life is leaking out from my feeble body, letting myself get drowned in the fact that i am going to leave this world. Hope that this is the best path in my life.