Lonely

Met with quite a few relationship problems recently.Relationship problems not as in love n stuff like that,it's about all sorts of stuff due to friendship n kinship. I find that i do have a lot of friends. Yet,i really cannot figure out who are really true to me and who are those that will help you in your face but stab you in your back. Suddenly and surprisingly,i found that i'm quickly becoming a loner. One who finds that he/she have had lost many friends. Those that were close are now only acquaintances. Those that were acquaintances don't even greet each other even when they meet each other now. Scary feelings now start to creep up onto people. I wonder if this is what is happening between relationships in human now? In the past,i hear from my tutors that life during the schooling time is the best,the most fun,the one where you find your true friends. Yet i seem to be finding more and more lies that have been creeping up.


Really,are all these going to be part of life now? I even find that i do not even feel about losing all the friends. Is this what it's going to become,an emotionless world filled with lies for selfish gains that is going to bring harm to those who people care so much about?


What is loneliness? is this the best solution to avoid being hurt nowadays? Is this going to be the root for the emotionless world that may be happening? Will there be more and more of those people who would do anything to gain their selfish needs and less and less people who will really care for those around them? What is life now man? I really feel the near future filled with so much dread that i really do not know what i really wish for. This dread is making me think that life is really a torture,giving us so much pain and harm that i really do not think that there should be more lives born in this world. Perhaps this is a good time for humans to start thinking whether they should continue to reproduce or should they simply just stop,and let humans die out,letting there be less of those who would get hurt and more of those who need to be salvaged. This is really the scary part,having so much scars and so little technology to cure them.