A Brand New Year,The Same Old Me

Have been staring at the computer the whole time from the start of the countdown to the coming of the new year. In the past,i'd always have special feelings whenever it comes to the end of the old year and the beginning of a new one. However,i suddenly find that this year really holds no excitement for me. I just crossed over the past year to this new one with no suddenly feel of pumping andrenaline or happiness that i've crossed another year. New years usually hold a special meaning to me. Yet i suddenly find out now that the life that i'm going through is so calm,no more of the rise and fall of emotions and stuff like that. It just makes me find that this world is suddenly so boring. Perhaps it's because i've been through so much that i simply find that stuffs that i really enjoyed in the past holds no more meaning to me. In other words,i guess i must be getting old.ROFL!


To speak the truth,i truly find that live now is really like a calm river. No more of the fun and beautiful scenary that the river will bring to liven things up. Even the best of the stuff only come once in a blue moon. Is this really part of growing up? Will what we have really enjoyed in the past be only like just a passing remark in life,where eternal is something that can never seem to be true? Somehow i wonder, where have all the fun and laughter really gone to,making my life look so dull and empty. Is this really going to be part of growing up? Yet,i find that other than having all the laughter and fun gone,i do have gained quite a bit of knowledge that i'd never even thought i'd have gained and understood. Really,do i really wish to have grown up,or do i not? I wonder....


However,there's one thing that i know. The world will not stop spinning just because my life is gone. It is something that led me into thinking about my current dream now. For that sake i will live on my life,for the darkest secret in my life and the theory that i have come up with with my own limited knowledge. Hence,it is something that will keep me going year after year. Being the same old me as i did ever since i thought it out.