Confusion,and Fear?!?!

Hmm...,been feeling strange lately. Deep in my soul,even though i do not know exactly what is the reason,is a growing feeling that is making me feel strange,very strange. This confused emotion is making me feel more and more afraid,even though i could not even distinguish the combination of feelings inside my body. Is this the finding of interest in life? Or is this the utter disappointment towards life? I really do not wish to find myself in a difficult position. I'm a simple man,one who does not wish to get involved into all these bombardment and compilation of emotions. Hope that these feelings will be resolved,or,at the very least,they will be gone. Rid of these feelings,done with what i really wish,and get on with what i truly hope.


This strange feeling may be really coming from a certain uncertainty that i have been thinking all along. Have always been wondering,is life really what it seems? Do i really have the courage to face what life has for me? In this world,there has always been a saying of the afterlife,the talks about contributions and retributions. Are all these what i pin for? Somehow,i feel that all these have a missing element that has been overlooked by almost everyone. Looking at the current trend of life,where alot of people cheats,lies,and all sorts of things. What is considered right,and what is considered wrong? Do i really wish to continue to live in this world? Find out what lies before me in my afterlife,find out what are my contributions and retributions? This may just be the reason why i do not wish to believe in GODS and the cause and effects in afterlife. I only wish to finish this life of mine,let everything be gone after that,and find myself free again,never having to care about what is life and all sorts of things related to it,ever again.