Chilling,Empty,Deep and Darkness Surrounds Me

In the past,I have always had the occasional feeling of having my heart feel extremely empty. Giving it the feeling of having ur heart devoured by some unseen forces. This ain't the same feeling of being heart-broken or what,it doesn't give u the numbed feeling and ends there. This feeling I have starts to get scary only at this stage. This feeling starts to bring down what u really do not wish to think about,even going to the extent of breaking what little beliefs u hold,denying what little thoughts u have. This feeling is really scary. Perhaps it is because that i was still a young and naive that it seems extremely scary and fearful. Yet this feeling have given me some insight in life. Life is one think that is full of darkness,no matter how much one wish to find their way out,once they have been born they are already part of this diseased world,no matter how much they wish to escape from this ugly fact.


Now,i feel that I have been enveloped with this chill that i have always been feeling,to the extent the the chill doesn't even bother me much now. Perhaps this is just something that everyone has to go through in life. I can only wish that this feeling is something that will let me learn stuff that i have never even think of in the past. To get over this feeling is also another wish of mine,since i'm what i am. But what i really wish for now,is to be able to forget all these pain and suffering that i am going through,which i guess is the main source of my chill.